Not so Happy New Years

so how was your new years?...mine was spent much like every new years...wishing i was ending the previous year on a higher note than the year before...and hoping that the new year will lead me down an enlightened path...unfortunately all the years before have not been as successful....but this year feels different...I AM Different...i want things....i want things really bad....and i want things to change...i want to change them...i'm tired of getting what i always get...and most of all not doing what will make me happy...have i been vague enough?...have i managed to say enough without saying anything at all....thats fine with me...because i know...thats all that matters...they say desire is the root to all evil...welcome to the year of EVL