today is just not a good day...today felt even more like a monday than yesterday...i am incredibly sad...i cant catch friday...even though i try...we've left food out for him...and a warm electric blanket...and still he runs from us...its freezing tonight...like in the Teens...and i just want him to be home snuggled up getting some love from us...but instead he is out in the cold...freezing his fuzzy lil buns off...looking for food...or us...or something...i just want him back home...today a gray long haired cat walked into our garage....drew must keep the garage door open in his man cave...his smoking really offends me...and this kitty walked in...i loved it and gave it some food and water...and i told him he could stay for the night...we'll see what happens...as i walked to the front door to leave food out for Friday and plug in the electric blanked i saw Friday run away from our front door...i want him back so much!...im very sad...i cant be consoled right now...not to mention that my kids are really testing me...pushing the limit...making messes...not doing their homework or chores...and just all around being little spoiled rotten jerks...little do they know tomorrow will wreak havoc with their play time...and this might be an ongoing test to see who can hold out the longest...i know it will be me...

today was very slow....and i woke up not at 6:30 like i had wanted to...so i could wake the kids up to prepare for back to school Thursday...instead i slept till 8...and then woke them up...either way...they still woke up 2 hours earlier than what theyve been getting up at...the rest of the day passed by like in slow motion...until i realized i had forgotten to take my meds...yes i have also begun the slow road towards medicating my adhd...and its been so productive...actually finishing tasks all by my lil self...i have begun to declutter the house...and organize myself and children...its been awesome...its funny when i forget though...i know that something is missing but i cant quite put my finger on it...

so most of the day was spent watching Love and Logic tapes by jim fay...how to be a loving parent that uses logic in discipling their children....too easy right?...you should totally look this up...its been great...making kids responsible for their choices...omg...what a concept...then alex turned on the history channel and we got caught up with the tale of civil war...and lincoln's assassination...very hypnotic...i only got grossed out when i was trying to eat my foccia bread and olive oil dipping sauce...only to look up at the tv and see amputees...and other soldiers with missing appendages...not a happy sight...

the best part of my day?...practice!...i led practice for the 2nd time this week...i hope everyone enjoyed it...i tried to make it as diverse as possible mix it up a little bit...our coach is out of town for the holidays...so i was asked to take over in her absence...very humbling and a lot more stressful than i initially thought...i'll be glad when she gets back...

and to top the night off right...a glass of wine and steak...yummm...especially since it was ready and waiting for me when i got home...never mind that i prepared it all...drew broiled it just right...i put the kids to bed...much to their dismay...and snuggled up on my bed to watch....wife swap...it was silly tonight...a homeschooling frumpy mom and a frumpy looking beauty pageant mom switch homes...geeee big suprise of what happenes next...then it was two episodes of Supernanny...i must find out how much of that show is scripted and how much is really true...just so curious...but i love a lot of the ideas they come up with....i just wish they would do more follow up for these families...it seems almost cruel that they intrude on these people with such emotional and sometimes physical problems...hang out with them for only a week and then leave them....what about counseling?...what do they fall back on when they get frustrated or things arent working out...parenting is never perfect...ahh well...i'm tired now...that steak is putting me to sleep....night

you people suck....

why...oh why...i was feeling purty good...2 blogs on this site in the past few weeks....and then i start trolling through a few blogs...and i'm thrown for a loop...how could i possibly keep up with all this??...people are blogging everyday?...365 days a year?...the only thing i know that i do everyday...thanks ADHD...is piss...how about once a week?....lets start small?...let my brain cells fuse back together and begin working as a unit...and then...then i can bring you some quality blogging....instead of this poopoo dribble i've been spurting out for now...

ok...whining over...its almost 1am here...and its one more day until school starts back up for the heathens...i am not prepared....waking up at 6am is not my favorite thing to do...so i must away now...to my fortress of solitude...and re-energize myself...prepare for the morning of back to school hell that awaits me on thursday...

Not so Happy New Years

so how was your new years?...mine was spent much like every new years...wishing i was ending the previous year on a higher note than the year before...and hoping that the new year will lead me down an enlightened path...unfortunately all the years before have not been as successful....but this year feels different...I AM Different...i want things....i want things really bad....and i want things to change...i want to change them...i'm tired of getting what i always get...and most of all not doing what will make me happy...have i been vague enough?...have i managed to say enough without saying anything at all....thats fine with me...because i know...thats all that matters...they say desire is the root to all evil...welcome to the year of EVL